Fear cuts deeper than swords.
#hysterical laughing i really can’t talk about how fear plays a pivotal role in each clone’s upbringing and future no i tried to go about it#how sarah’s had to force herself to thrive in spite of fear and that calloused defense has dehumanised her at times#how alison’s had to force herself to thrive in denial of fear and that desperate passivity has unhinged her mental stability#how helena has only ever known fear and that has made her both immune to it and the most fragile of all#i have a sense that katja was very noble contacting fellow clones and banding them together#and she had such a human fear of loss of dying of finality#and cosima just. perhaps the most tragic i ? ??#ms. happy smiling cosima who believes everything is fascinating and everything will be fine.#that deafening fear that you sleep through the night only to find the morning just as terrifying
Rachel who had her parents taken away from her, who believed they were dead, who had to live through the fear of growing up in a new place with people she didn’t know telling her time after time that she wasn’t normal, that she was an experiment.
Tony who had to learn to thrive despite the fear of the prejudice he faced, even from his own family, who had to make a life for himself and that life meant living in fear every time he did a job, not knowing if he’d survive this job, or if his friends would survive this job.
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this broke my heart
Behind the scenes of ‘Filibuster’